SheIn Fur Coat (old) | Mango Sequin Blazer (Thrifted) | V-Neck Blouse | Skinny Jeans
ZooShoo Boots | DIY Ugly Christmas Sunglasses (stay tuned!)
Duane Reade Reindeer Antlers
In the spirit of Christmas on Sunday, I’ve decided my outfits this week will follow a somewhat-Ugly Christmas theme with a dose of SLEIGH. I’m calling it “Christmas Pimpin’ These Ho-Ho-Hoes“.
Lol that’s pretty extra right? You know I live to be ridiculous.
Ridiculously good looking.
Lol! All jokes aside. I threw together this outfit and the other one you’ll see later this week at the last minute. Just to be festive, but also to feel some sort of relief. Not being able to work on NC4OT during finals felt so stifling. I could feel my creative energy bubbling up to the surface, ready to explode. However, I just needed to prioritize my education and “put baby in the corner for a little bit”.
Okay, okay that was the last joke! Promise! Thanks Patrick Swayze! Rest in Peace.
But having to pump the breaks on working on NC4OT reminded me, as always, of how much I appreciate having it in my life. How NC4OT pretty much saved my life. Around this time last year, I was enduring the hardest time of my life. I was going through the suicidal thoughts I mentioned in Why I Started Blogging. And the coldness of winter reflected in my heart, in my actions, and in my self-esteem.
I cut everyone off from my life at the time. I often ignored text messages from friends. I didn’t go out. And I did nothing, but sleep and eat. My boyfriend was the only one who knew the extent of my pain and depression. And even then I used “code words” like “disappear” instead of saying what I truly meant to say to him: Suicide.
The holiday season is a joyous occasion for so many of us, filled with love, and hope, and maybe even hoes?? If you’ve heard the ShadeRoom’s single, “Christmas Is Lit“, then you know exactly what I’m talking about. Three words: money, ass, and hoes.
But it’s also a time of despair for some. Those who’ve lost family members around this time – may they rest in peace. Those without families. Without guidance, support, or luxuries. And even those who are, by all means, blessed and fortunate, but still unhappy. Those who just feel the bitterness of winter and life in general, like my past self.
This time last year, I told myself I had no purpose. That I’m just “filler“. That random person who fills the empty seat at an award show when your favorite celeb/person of more importance is missing. And practically everyone was more important than myself. I felt like I existed to exist. Not to leave any valuable imprint or impact or contribution to the world. Just a filler of gaps.
I can say because of NC4OT, I’m in a completely different mindset than I was a year ago. I can sit here with these reindeer antlers, this sequin blazer I’ve knotted into a bow, and these crazy DIY Christmas sunnies and just feel bliss. And by the way, stay tuned for that DIY tutorial!
A year later, I’ve now restarted my education, I’ve found a passion, achieved some small goals, and set even BIGGER dreams for 2017! Finals may be kicking my ass at the moment, but I finally feel hopeful! And I’m ready to encourage you to reach your goals too! But we’ll talk about that more later.
For now, I’m just going to give you some Christmas Break Homework! Man, that’s a flashback lol. Don’t worry, it’s ungraded!
(1) Take the time to reach out to ALL your loved ones during the holidays! Just check on them and see how they’re doing. Listen to them, and do not accept a “one-word” answer. Try to dig a bit deeper. Your shoulder may be the only one they can lean on.
And (2) as the end of the year approaches, reflect on your success, your triumphs small and large, and especially on your mistakes. 2016 may or may not have been YOUR year, but you’re stronger for having learned something and surviving through it. Remember that life may seem tough at the moment, but there is ALWAYS a bigger picture to your struggles. I’m beginning to understand this now. Every obstacle is a step towards growth.
God is building a warrior in you so that you can SLEIGH and live to your full potential!
Happy Holidays! Merry Christmas!
Turn in your homework – Share where/who you were a YEAR ago!
Until next time!